SO LOW

First before I share this meditation of my soul from a very dark time in 2019 where my mind, body, and spirit was trapped in an invisible prison. I was in bondage to my promise given to complete a 2.5 month program at what I later learned to be a reeducation compound of sorts. This compound and misguided people of faith that lead it misused the Bible and the teachings of Jesus. They did this to mold emissaries of an unhealthy version of Christianity to go to the worlds people to convert them.

SO LOW

I have been gone so long in a world that doesn't appreciate Joy, peace, patience, and understanding. People of the world say its broken, people of the world say its doomed, people of the world say it is what it is and do noting to try and shape the world into something worth saving.

People of the world lie, cheat, and steal to gain momentum up the corporate ladder, people of the world rape, kill, and destroy in the name of boredom or simply explain it away by saying “because I wanted to” or “this seemed like it would be fun.” The world is a dark fallen empire ruled by demonic entities and the fallen Morning Star.

One must choose a side… Do you choose to dawn the full armor of God and join the ranks of the Heavenly Hosts to do battle against the powers of darkness or do you choose everlasting death and separation from the I’M that created you and every molecule in every galaxy. Choosing death you will know suffering the likes of no human currently can experience.

AFTERMATH

After all the hell I went through at the compound it mad me questioned my calling to help make the world a better place. even thou my life up to being trapped in survival mode I had knew I was meant to help others and foster positive change, but the stress and efforts of the compounds staff to try and reprogram my Faith took its tole on my mind and emotions. My faith in who God actually is and the Holy spirits power in me helped me survive the constant thoughts of suicide to escape the stressful and exhausting reprogramming efforts by so many lost people of faith. I had not thought about commuting suicide since I gave my life back to God in 2013.

When my time at the compound ended in October of 2019 I packed my things the night before and left as early as I possibly could never to return to one of the darkest places I have ever experienced in my 34 years of life. Safely back on the road again heading to Ukraine (with pit stops in Prague and Riga, more on that in a different post) I questioned myself why i did not listen to my God given gift of being able to spot shysters and charlatans and leave the compound as soon as I learned it was not the

program that was sold to me at $3000 dollars I might add but something far worse... I stayed because I did not want to lose my benefactors investment in me and wanted to be able to say that I "graduated"

ENDING ON A HIGH NOTE

Well I was in Ukraine trying to heal from the damage that the compound did to my soul I followed the Holly Spirits lead and brought $100 dollars worth of grocery to this group of Social orphans. Getting to spend time with them and refocus on who and what in life is most important helped me begin to pickup the peaces of Gods dreams for my life that were shattered by the reprogramming efforts of the compound. The lost and forgotten people of the world have more value than all the things that money and success can buy.